05.27.12.00.17
I’m not asking you to apologize for not coming sooner. Because atleast you eventually came. But by that time I had already felt forgotten.
I’m not asking you to apologize for what you did or didn’t do. But for how I already felt from earlier it just added to the loneliness I felt alone in that room.
I’m asking you to apologize because you contributed to me feeling those things. Yet asking for an apologize almost feels pointless.
Because if the roles had been reversed and I arrived very late. And found out later that I made you feel forgotten. I would have felt horrible and told you I’m sorry I made you feel that way.
If I had left you in the room alone while you were already feeling the way you felt and then lonely on top of everything. I would take you in my arms and tell you I’m sorry I made you feel lonely.
Because I care if you are hurt. And most importantly if it is I that am causing you pain. Regardless if I personally believe that I am truly at fault or not. It is knowing that to you, I hurt you. That is what I would apologize for.
But for you having already stated that it isn’t your fault that I feel the way I feel. U are already telling me you don’t care if I am hurt nor if I feel you are the cause of that hurt.
So to ask you to care. To ask you to acknowledge that I see u as the cause of my pain. To ask you to empathize or want to correct how I see you is meaningless.
You should have listened to what I was saying. You should have cared enough about how I felt.
You should have, but you didn’t.
